F[O]REVER, I [W]ILL B[E] A STRONG [G]IRL

Hopeless~

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Came home alone today. Went to
carrot's house before i came back
home by cab to take my laptop.

He didn't accompany me to carrot's
house and send me back. Chased
him back when we're in Bugis train
station. Lied to him that i won't go
carrot's house to take my laptop.

He wanted to send me back when
we're at Bugis station. But i saw it
was too late. The time was already
almost 11 when we're at the station.

Didn't want him to cab back home
so chased him home. When we're
at the platform, the train arrived
and he wanted to drag me into the
train. I pushed him away. Partly
cos i was angry at him. Told him
about my plan of going his house,
lend the car from his dad and we
go carrot's hse to take my laptop
before he send me home. If it
really happened like that, at least
he don't have to cab home.

Told him my plan when we're in
Marina Sq's Carls Jr eating dinner
at 9.40. Guess he didn't pay
attention to what i was saying then.

We landed in Bugis after dinner to
the hotel i'm working cos i think
i lost my keys there while changing.

Wanted to go down and check my
keys if they are there or not so
that at least i can get to sleep
peacefully tonight. After i've found
my keys, asked him whether we're
going his house or carrot's house
now? He turned to me and asked
my why do we need to go his house?

Hello! Isn't it obvious? He said why
must collect your laptop today?
Tml then collect also can what?
Told him carrot will be working
till 11pm most probably daily. Tml
i'm working till 7pm and after that
i wish to rest. In the end, i told him
that it's ok, i can go ahead myself
and he can go home now.

So pissed.
Can't he just tell me we'll go his
house to get the car? Nvm ok.
I can rely on myself to get my
laptop!

So i lied to him in the station
that i'm going home and that
he do not need to send me home
as it's really late. By the time
he sent me to my hse, no more
bus for him to get home and he'll
have to cab home. He said he'll
get home by train and kept wanted
to drag me into the stupid train.

In the end i said I'll never
board the train if he ever boards!
He boarded his train angrily. I
shed tears when he board the
train. He didn't even say bye or
look back. He simply went off,
just like that.

He had his back facing my direction.
He didn'tbother to look at me. It
was unexpected. Out of the blue.

Right now, I don't even know
how to talk to him. I'm so lost.
Almost every single day we quarrel.
Almost every day. My working
hours are so fluctuated that I
do not have enough time for him.

I'm so scared. One guy once told
him that after his gf who was
with him for 4 years entered
shift work job. They can't manage
to make it. I'm really very very
scared. He said he'll definitely
marry me. But i'm scared that i'll
be the one who will back out.
I'm so afraid of what will happen
to us in the future.

He did text me when he reached
home at 0005. But he wasn't
online when i reached home.
wanted so much to say goodnight
to him before i sleep. Should i go
find him in the morning later?

I miss him.

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Dance Robots Dance~ !

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

SUPER CUTE~ YOU SHOULD CATCH IT! Just find the whole video amazing but the last part of a solo robot just don't fit the song. It's stunning, but doesn't fit into the whole MV (:

WATCH IT AND YOU'LL FALL IN LOVE WITH IT (^.^)